::why + kenapa::

hey bloggy,i hv a great strory wana share wit u..its about him,not dat guy dat i like but da one dat i love..yes,him!!!wuts wrong??

on 26apr,me & my workmates went to karoke nk bt mcm mjls perpshn laa for one of my team mates.msa ktowg ngh mkn,suddenly i got a cll frm 1 no dat i dont regonise.after dat person asked me where i am,den he juzt said sorry for disturbing me...i was like,WTF!!so i sms dia & evn cll dia tny spa ni but no answer..so,i bg last msg tny lg skali who da hell is he??!!den he reply,sorry sbb gngu i & slh tyming msa dia cll i tu & da best part is ok sbb i x knl sora dia..from der i noe dat it was HIM...i tny dia no spa ni,dia ckp ni no bru dia & wife dia x tau ok no ni...so,i pn mcm xpala..lyn sj la...

ktowg pn sms la sbb dh lma sgt ktowg x men sms...den i tny dia mcm ne prt dia & guess wut he replied...he said dat he had a blood & stomach cancer!!!i mcm huh??!!!act,i dh mmg agk yg there is something wrong wit his stomach bcz slma aku ngn dia,he keep telling me dat perut dia skt...i did adv him so many time to do medical check up ngn doctor pkr tp mcm2 alsn dia bg...so i cm dh mls laa kn nk ckp bebyk dh sbb i pkr dia dh ada bini so let his wife do wut she need to do...im not dat surprise act bla i dpt tau brita tu,bloggy tp cuma i x sgka its a cancer...

when i woke up da next mrng im asking myself am i dreaming or something about this sms-ing??but when i check my hp,its real...i tot dat it was juz a dream...

and my question now is why he did dis to me??knp lps apa dia dh bt pd aku,knp dia cri aku blk??knp dia clled or sms aku blk lps aku dh berjya hdp tnpa dia dlm hdp harian aku??knp lps aku menph dugaan + penderitaan ni seorg bru dia cri aku blk??KENAPA = WHY??? it is juz not fair,bloggy!!!!lps apa yg aku dh lalui,lps apa yg aku tmpuhi,aku bgn + bangkit seorg dri utk melpakn apa yg telh berlaku,bloggy!!!jiwa + prasaan aku terseksa + merana sbb dia!!!hdp aku kucar-kacir sbb dia!!!tp ada dia pdli,ada dia tny,ada dia bntu aku??TIDAK!!!!!aku keseorgn tp aku ttp bersykr sbb  aku dikurniakn kwn disekeliling aku,aku dikurniakn fmly yg sntsa dicc aku x kra aku ssh ato sng...

& today,he sms me again asking where am i ptg td & i replies dat im odw to the parking car la wana go back...den u noe wut he sms me,if i want to see him go to his fren's workshop at bbst bcz he was der!!!
den i was like,harus ke aku p sna semta2 utk jmpa dia??mmg aku teramat rndu & teringn sesgt nk jmpa dia tp lps apa yg dh berlaku,x semdh tu aku nk berdpn ngn dia...kalo btl dia sbnr e yg nk jmpa aku,biar dia yg cri aku...dia bkn e x tau aku kje kt ne,bkn e x tau aku tnggl kt ne & bkn e dia x tau no hp aku...biar dia sndri yg ajk nk jmp...aku x kn seskali utk jmpa dia,bloggy!!!ati aku btl2 dh terttp utk seorg insan bernma LELAKI....