::SUCKER PUNCH::

hola blogy...

akhr e aku kua jgk kn...almklum laa sblm ni cti mna pnh nk dk umh..ada je plan ngn dia tp skunk pape kna bt sndri...tp x pa la...sekrg2 e aku bljr jln nk p sna sni nnt sng utk aku jgk...hehehehe...

ok,ari ni aku tgk movie SUCKER PUNCH  ... cta e act mengshkn seorg remaja pompuan,nma e baby yg ble dktakn tertkn laa sjk kematian mak & adik pompuan dia...n dia plk ditdh membnh adk pompuan dia so bpk tiri dia antr dia kt umh sakit mental...bla dia smpi kt umh skt mntl tu,dr c2 laa dia beknln ngn lg 4 owg; sweet pea,rocket,blondie & amber...umh skt mntl tu dkra mcm klas teater utk dia n kekwn dia cri brg utk kuar dr umh mental tu...bla dia mnri jer,dowg 4 owg mst kt alam lain tau...part tu yg mcm poyoz skit pn ada la tp menyrnk kn....hehehhee =)

bla dowg dh dpt 4 item tu 3 dpd dowg mati kna bnh....msa 1st dance baby,dia dpt 1 petnjk dr seorg laki tua ni cra utk dowg kua dr umh mentl tu which ada 5 n owg tua tu ckp bla msa e dh tba dia akn tau brg yg ke5 tu...bla dowg dh dpt kmpl kn ke4 brg tu, 3 dpd dowg mati...suddenly,kt gate lua dr umh mentl tu ada guard & on dat tym bru dia dpt tau brg yg ke5 owg tua tu ckp ialah dri dia...so dia lpskn kwn dia & jdkn dri dia sebgi umpan....so fnshing e mmg memngkn kpla & x phm...ada lg part yg aku x phm ialah act umh mentl tu ialah umh mentl ato pub or like teater show?/!!!

the director of this movie has his own way to express the moral of the story which is if we want to success,we hv to fight for it...it will not simply show of....

the casts = emily browning,abbie cornish,jena malone,vanessa hudges,jamie chung,carla cugino,oscar isaac.

~JOGGING~

hey blogy,
guess wut,i strted jogging..i cant believe it cz im very lazy to jog...but ok,i feel healthy after i jog...
its been 3days oredy i jog..n my leg cramped untl tight...owh gosh!!!!
on my 2nd day,guess who i met?its him but dia juz pusing around wit his car la...tp yg musykil e mcm ne dia ble tau i kt c2?hmhmmm...

n more thing u noe wut,he called me again a week after his 1st called.im shocked & da way he talked its like he regret 4 wut he had done...we talked,asking life & anything but its only a while...yela,aku pn x nk la nmpk sgt yg aku pn sbnr e mmg menghrp sesgt dia akn cll aku tetiap ari kn....yg aku x phm tu blogy,knp skunk???knp bla aku dh ble survive tnpa dia,bru dia cll aku blk???kekdg tu blogy,aku nk je jmpa dia & ask him...

back to the story....mayb from wut we talked a day before he knew dat i'll be there...aku mcm huh???nsb baik dia x trn or pnggl aku kn..tp aku brni jamin yg dia x kn brani pnggl aku e...aku ingtkn yg dia akn cll semlm lps nmpk aku,itu pn kalo dia nmpk la kn...tp x der plk,mayb bini dia ada skali kt...x ksh laa,bkn mslh aku pn...

act,bloggy...aku nekad ngn kptsn ni sbb aku dh x thn asyk jd bhn gurauan & ejekan semta2...kalo jd bhn gurauan dr owg asing x pa,ni x...dr owg yg aku dh agp sebgi abg & hrmt dia sebgi abg...aku btl2 x sgka laa kn,tp nk bt cm ne..owg mcm aku ni kn dh mmg nsb e mcm tu...LAYANzzzzz jerk!!!asl kn aku x meyshkn sespa & aku bhgia ngn apa yg aku ada skunk....

ok la kn sbb aku jogging ni pn utk keshthn aku jgk...kalo aku x tlg dri aku sndri,spa lg yg nk tlg..btl x???selain dpd tu aku nk bktikn kt mamat tu yg aku ble berubh,aku bole mjukn dri aku wlpon tnpa dri dia dcc aku...sbb aku pcya yg aku kn jmpa dia 1 ari nnt sma ada bersma bini dia ato pn kekwn dia so aku nk bla msa tu tba aku nk dia terkjt ngn perubhn aku...aku jgk nk dia rc mnysl sbb bt aku mcm aku ni x dr prasaan...wutever la blogy...tu sumer dh lpskn,xdr gna nk kngkn lg....

so now,im so epy & proud of myself!!!! CHAIYOK...

::epyness::

hey bloggy...miss me??i miss u alot..heuheuhe =)

act,i dont noe how to say...but im epy for wut im doing & feel now...can say dat im proud of myself!!!!

slps je i dpt cll dr "dia",nk kta i gmbra tu ble la but nk kta i terlalu xcited sbb dia cll tu x la...juz lpskn rndu yg sntsa dlm ati i ni...tp kn blogy,lps i dgr sora dia i ingt i akn kmbli spt dlu tp alhamdulillah....i x tasa mcm nk cll dia or msg dia lps dia cll i...tu yg i trasa bgga sesgt ngn dri i...8least i prove dat i can live without him...

u noe wut bloggy,i trasa kesian sbnr e kt dia..bkn kesian sbb i nk blk kt dia blk NO!!!!never!!!!!kesian ngn mslh yg dia alami skunk...yes,mmg dr dlu pn dia ada msh tp x la mcm skunk...dlu ble lg terkwl tp skunk smpi kn dia dh x tau nk bt pa,hes like BLUR...  after i dgr je mslh yg dia ckp kt i,i jd mcm plu ker i tlg dia or juz let him....tp i nk tlg dia mcm ne kn??dlu pn i juz ble tlg dia ngn m'dgr mslh dia...tp yg i curious e,knp bertmbh trk life dia??knp dia mcm dh pts asa??itu yg btkn i kesian ngn dia...

act,blogy...i nk jmpa dia & dgr mslh dia tp i tau dats impposible rite??!!i juz hope & pray dat he will be epy wit his wife....if he epy,i will epy too...

::him::

hola beb...

guess wut??he called me ok!!! wut for??after wut he had done to me,y must he called me now??after i finally can manage to live without him,after i survive my life without him,y he called me??!! y bloggy??!!

to him;-

abg,bkn sy x gmbra ngn pngln dr abg cma sy terkjt sj...knp abg cll sy sb sy pkr abg dh lpakn sy..abg dh buang sy dr hdp abg trs lps sy cll abg ari tu...kalo abg nk tau,pd ari sy cll abg sy gmbra sesgt sbb dpt dgr sora abg wlpn kjp..tp x sgka 2nd tym sy cll,cra abg mcm lyn x lyn sy jer...
mulai pd saat tu sy dh nekad abg yg sy akn mulakn hdp bru slpn tnpa abg dicc sy...sy kna berusaha jgk,sy kna lwn jgk prasaan sy sbb smpi bla sy nk sedey psl pkra yg x bwa pape faedah pd dri sy...hny memudrtkn dri sy sj..lbh dr 3 mggu abg sy lwn prasaan,sy hadapi pa jua dugaan yg bakal sy hadapi tnpa abg & alhamdulillah,dgn izin Allah sy hampr berjya....
dan kenapa bru skunk abg cll sy??knp lps sy ampr berjya melpkn apa yg pnh berlaku ant kta,bru abg nk cll??bru abg cri sy??utk apa abg??apa utk sktkn ati sy lg??apa utk btkn hdp sy sgsra lg lps apa sy dh lalui ngn abg slma 4thn ni???tidak sma skali!!!!sy x kn izin kn....
sy berterima ksh sesgt ats jagan abg slma sy bersma abg,sy berterima ksh sesgt ats apa yg abg dh lakukn demi sy...sy hargai sgla2 e...tp sekranya abg msh menyanyangi sy,sy hrp abg dpt biarkn sy menjlni hdp sy spt skunk abg,tnpa abg,tnpa cinta kta & tnpa ksh syg abg....sy dh x mmpu nk mengeluarkn air mata utk seorg lelaki yg hny tau ckp tp x tau utk bktikn....!!!
thnkx alot abg utk sgla2 e....

abg mgkn cinta pertma sy tp abg bkn cnta terakhr sy...& kta x mgkn & x akn bersma utk slma2 e....sbb abg sdh pn bt plhn....selmt tnggl mohd azry b bakar!!!!

love u always!!!!

always thingking of this "QOUTE" cz it is has a reason y!!!!!

::N-joY::

hola blogy.....

guess wut??i am sooo epy ystrdy bcz i njoy myself wit ma fwens...act,i didnt  plan dis bcz my fren , ilham juz sms me preparing to bring nice cloth cz mayb we will go clubbing...so, im like ok...heuheueheee...

u noe wut,blogy...supposely i should do dis a long tym b4...i should njoy myself wit my frens,having fun with dem,lepak-ing wit dem...but im juz wasting my time,my days with da person who is not dat appreciate me!!!!how stupid i am,blogy...

but now,im epy cz im on da way to get rid of him...thankx to all my fmly & fwens....!!!

LOVE all of dem...

epy burfday to my beloved uncle~sweet 50~

hola2....

act terlmpau byk bnda yg aku nk cta ngn ko blogy...tp olh sbb aku ada date wit my famly + grandma + uncles + aunties to celbrte my uncle's 50th bday at ITALIANESE restaurant....

place = empire @ subang
food = marvelous
price = no idea

my unlce oredy 50 yrs old man!!i juz dont believe it...means dat when i was born,he was 25yrs old...n now,he's 50yrs old but stl ensem ok...love him so much cz he is & always be my fevret uncle...

epy bday pak joe..smga pnjg umo & dmrhkn rzki...epy oways...

LOVE u,PakjoE....

da QOUTE dat i've been searching...

all this qoutes really touched my heart & the meaning is really deep...these qoutes also make me remember him & our memories...DAMN!!!!

act bloggy,there are alot of questions dat been 'playing' around in my head...
1-is he realy forget me??
2-is he regret or epy on wut had happen bet us??
3-if he loves me as he always said,y he's been silence since we broke off??
4-y da way he pick up my call like he's not epy??
5-or he hd to do this becz hes thingking wut will his wife feel about us??

u now wut,bloggy...sometym i felt like i want to sms or cll or even meet him & asked him all dis Q's...its really hurt me,blogy!!!y am i so stupid!!!????

ooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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~suddenly!!~

hey bloggy...

act,msa kje td aku dh nk brk ngn ko tp ada byk mslh plk...sbk skt la blogy...almklum la,ada staff aku nk dh nk b'hnti kje,esk last day dia...tu yg aku bt farewell party skt utk dia...blm smpt nk brk ngn ko,tym tu laa partner aku nk bncg,ble x??last mnt bru nk bncg...hampeh btl!!!

dh plk tu,aku ngn bdk aku prepare mknn,prepare table,prepare segla2 e...yg len tau mkn tp kms x...skt ati x??!!nk mkn je,tp bla bab kms lgsg x..bdk team len yg tlg  kms...angin aku!!!dh tu plk,ble dia blah g2 tnpa kms...mcm **&&%%$ jer...lps ni nk bt mkn2 log kt opis,aku mnta maaf la...xdr mkna e dh aku nk organize..

dh tu plk,msa aku isi mnyk td,ada la 1 lori bwa kmbg..bpk busuk ok!!!!nth ke mna laa owg tu bwa kmbg tu ee..act kn,tu bkn mslh aku btl x.???hehehehehe...sbk je aku ni....den,suddenly dlm kte aku teringt kt dia..aduhhhh!!!!aku sndri x tau mcm ne leh terkeluar kenangn tu...bodoh kn aku ni...bla laaa aku dpt lpakn dia 100%,bloggy...???makin aku cba lpakn dia,makin dkt dia ngn aku...


to him:-

!#$^*~%

blogy.....

so damn tired n sleepy...wait a sec,tired?pdhl i didnt do anythng dat make me tired..mayb,i spent most of my tym ngdp my lappy...huhuhuhee..
its ok,cz i love to do it..it can release my tension act...now i can laugh,smile n do wutevr i want w/o thingkng of "him"....
i noe i can do it!!!!!!!

 but i noe he would not do that cz hes not dat LOVE me as i am......but i dont mind...juz hope dat he will regret one day on wut he had done!!!!!!

;;work..work... (part 2);;

hey blogy...

dh strt kje ari ni tp ttp rc mls..rc cm nk mengdp lappy 24/7 je.. so ble brk2,chit chat ngn u all..huhuhu..at last i found a new hobby...hehehreee...so dat i can totally forget him...but stl misses him,blogy...
wut should i do?i dunno,blogy..dats y,i cant seat alone other wise be crying all time...
really need u,lappy n lady....

D+E+L+I+C+I+O+U+S+E

:;work...work::

OMG!!!!

blm strt kje lg,juz check email je dh ada mslh...aduu aiii....lps satu,satu....nma pn mslh kn kalo x der mslh  pn x ble jgk...mcm ne nk bljr erti kehdpn btl x??fenin...fenin....

hopefuly kn blogy,mslh ni setle secept e...sbb pale ni x tau ble thn smpi bla...silap ari bln meletup plk nnt...hahhahahhaa.....

act,aku trasa bhgia sesgt blogy...sbb e msh blm diknl pst..tp slh satu dpd e sbb aku dh ada lappy ni..so ble laa aku taip pa sj aku nk pd ko...cian ko kn,mst ko dh x lrt nk dgr luahan ati aku kn??cowi....but i dont hv any1 beside u & lady....i realy owe u which dat make me LOVE u so much....

xoxo to blogy & lady!!!!

;;Lappy;;

<my LOVE>

name = aspire one
he will b my new "boyfie" strtng today....wish da color is pink like da speakers...
so from now on i can always update blog-ing,facebook-ing,tumbler-ing & twitter-ing....

*ReaLity*....

                            THIS QOUTE IS TOTALLY TRUE!!!......

*GoaL*

Blogger,act i hd a 'thing' tht i share wit it most of the tym b4 i can write again to u..kind of diary,i cll LADY....i felt like only her can understand me & noe how i felt...dis is wut i wrote to her..

"act im feeling better now.I always think positively on why is dis happen to me..There must be a gud reason rite??Lady,ari ni genap semggu me & him break off.you noe wut,act i felt like a fool already.Why must i think about him if he dont evn think of me,rite??If he did,why i didnt get any sms or cll frm him since da day we broke off???You noe wut,Lady...on the day i cll him i felt so epy cz i can hear his voice after so long cz i missed him badly but when he treated me dat way,i pissed off..
I already made up my mind.I want to chce to be a bttr person which i can be proud of...cz im very very sure dat i will meet him one day & i want him to feel like he regret on wt he had did...."

~2011~

well,i noe its kind a late to say epy new yr to u...nway,stl epy new yr!!!! ;)

act,im quite surprise cz i didnt dexpect dat  dis yr 2011 will be da really new yr to me...not evn half of the yr,can say a lot of 'surprises' dat i get from him...how am i gonna describe it cz it happen juz like dat-in malay "dalam sekelip mata"....

i didnt blame him or anyone but i blame myself on trusting him so damn much after wut he had done to me!!!i suffered 3 times bcz of him,dude...how stupid am i,rite???i didnt say dat i dont want to accept wut had happen but i cant accept da fact dat i cant sms or call him..

really hope dat i can forget him,i mean  totally forget him cz i want to stop suffering!!!!!!

its been along time....

hey der beb...its been a long tym i dont drop by & share my story,rite???im quite bz & beside i dont hv a laptop to on9 24/7....but now,i hv my own laptop juz left for a broadband only,den i can on9 whenever & wherever i want....

stop here for a while//will b cntinue shortly....