I sms him on 13sep

~Sy dh x tau nk ckp pa lg,abg.cra abg skunk mmg len sesgt.abg ckp ngn sy pn skunk x mcm dlu.cll lps tu ckp sekjp je,dh nk ltk abg dh x ckp mcm abg slalu ckp ngn sy sblm ni.sy tau yg abg bt kptsn utk kebaikan kta b'2,abg jgk dh x nk sy skt ati,mengns sbb abg kn tp utk pengetahuan abg,sy lg skt ati,lg sedey bla kta jd mcm ni.sy x slhkn abg,sy tau abg bt ni sume utk kebaikan sy jgk.tima ksh abg..mgkn abg ble hdp tnpa sy,tnpa dgr sora sy,tnpa msg2 sy,tnpa perhatian sy,tnpa b'gdh ngn sy,sgla2 tnpa sy tp sy x ble abg.3thn sy abskn hdp sy,msa sy utk abg tetba je skunk sy sorg2.sy tau sy kna cba jgk tp sy x tau la abg.nmpk e sy t'pksa la bt sgla2 sowg2 mulai skunk sbb abg dh buang sy trs dr hdp abg kn??abg dh x plukn sy lg,abg ada dia.np hdp sy mcm ni,abg?np hdp sy x mcm owg len?bahgia ngn psgn,bahgia ngn kehdpn dia,kenapa abg??kalo mcm ni bek sy mati je sbb sy x tau sma ada sy ble hadapi ato x.kalo sy ckp ngn abg pn abg bkn e amk pdli,kn?lps abg bca msg,abg snyp x ckp pape,x pjk sy blk.xpala...tima ksh e abg utk sgla2 e...sume yg b'laku b'pnca dpd sy..~

raya 2010 (part 2)

continue from the 1st blog...

act,its not dat im not epy clbrte raya at muar but its juz quite bowink der...i dunno why...feel like der is sumthng missing which i dunno wut..mayb its bcz i miss him so damn much..evry day,evrytym i sms him but evrytym he on his hp i dunno wether he read da msg(s) or not..i want to ask but im afraid juz bcz i ask him den we hd a fight...im done fight wit him,im done cry bcz of him....to tell u da truth,blogy..i really rally really really miss him....but im quite lucky cz i hv my couz who accompanied me,we hang out togther,we laugh toghter,which can make me forget bout him evndow 4 a little while..

ok,blogy..done wit him..my activities for these raya days was very exhausted but epy (wlpn x se-epy mna pn)..but i do sumthng dat i nvr done on raya day b4 dis which COOKING..  OMG!!!... me,myself doesnt believe it...my aunty "kerah" us (me & couz) do dis & dat but its ok..8least we learn somethng...da worst part is we hv to clean "usus & perut kambing",uwekk!!!da bbq nite on 2nd day raya was happening but not happening like we used to do b4...but its ok..we stl hv fun...overall,my raya 2010 is more happier den last 2yrs...huehuee...camat ari rya aidilfitri.....

my lovely couz who juz learn to eat lamb....huheuhe...

raya 2010

well,wut i shoul say bout my raya 2010??boring??full wit epyness??act me myself dont noe wut to commnt bout it...

to tell u da truth,beb..at 1st,i am excited to clbrte dis yr cz 3yrs im working i nvr take leave to clbrte raya..btw,i oredy deal wit my mom if my dad is not going anywhere dis yr,i will tke leave n raya at MUAR,my lovely hometown...since my dad doesnt go anywhere so i apply leave for my raya 2months ealier,ok??so damn batak nk rya..(ahakz....)

to be continued.....

I sms him on 11sep

~Hi abg,bt pa??bz ke?ari ni fmly ada bt bbq,sume ada xcept kazen sy yg jb 2..rugi plk rc e dia x dr..cuba laa teka anyh bkr pa??sekor kmbg ok,bpk besar tp bla dh siap x bpa nk msk,spoil btl la..trs hlg slera sy nk mkn.mayb mlm skt p mkn kt kdi mamak dpn umh nnk kt,i2 pn kalo jd la..esk sy blk tp x tau bla lg..errmm,k la..tk cr..rndu abg wlpn abg dh x ckp abg rndu sy..~

misses him

at last he cll me evn dow he didnt say he love me or miss me or gv me a kiss but its fine.at least he cll me.sekrg2 e lps jgk rndu aku pd dia..
But im stl wondering wether he juz want me to be his fren or more den a fren??like b4..i wana ask him but im afraid dat dis will make us fight again cz im done fighting wit him.im tired of facing dis again n again n again...i dunno wut 2 do now..i want to 4get wut hd happen n move on but i dunno wether i can do it or not..i juz hoping dat i hv da strenght to move on n juz let dis behind...

I sms him on 10sep (part 1)

~Abg,bt pa??dh tdo ke??sy ngh lpk ngn kazen2 sy kt lua umh,amk angn.jeles pn ada gk ngk dowg.yela,dowg sume msg ngn bf2 dowg skunk.kalo sblm ni kn sy msg ngn abg wlpn abg blk kg.tp skunk dh x dpt.xpala,sy ttp dpt msg abg jgk wlpn abg bca msg sy lmbt.huehue..msa msg abg ari 2,sy m'hrp abg akn ckp abg rndu n syg sy tp x dr pn..k la,nyte2..xoxo~

I sms him on 8sep (part 2)

~Abg,nk dgr 1 cta x??ari ni sy msk k utk b'bka.mak juz sediakn bhn n ajr jer..huehuheue..tp x byk la,setkt 2 lauk je tp ok la kn??8least sy bljr cra memsk sblm t'lwt..buka mkn pa??keknygn sy ari ni smpi x lrt nk bgn,huhuhuhu..k la,nnt sy msg abg lg.sy nk bla kta jmp nnt,abg kna ckp n bg kmn psl sy bg msg kt abg setiap msa..k??tada..xoxo~

I sms on 8sep (part 1)

~Hi abg,bt pa?ngh tdo lg la 2.sy dh siap nk grk blk muar.sy blk ngn k.dik dh alg2 dia blk ari ni.xcited sy ari ni sbb dpt brya kt Muar.dh lma x brya kt sna,kazen2 sy plk sume e blk.heehhehhee,srnk e..
Abg sht?sy hrp sesgt yg abg akn cll sy msa rya nnt,wlpn dgr sora abg skjp 8least lps jgk rndu sy.sy hrp abg rndu sy mcm ne sy rndu abg..salam..~

I sms him on 7sept

~Hi abg,bt pe 2?bz ke bkr lemg?sy blk kg bsk,ngn mak abh skali sb pkck sy x jd pnjmkn kte dia.mayb grk pg kt,lps shr tp xtau laa mak.ckp je lps shr,nnt tup2 ptg plk.nmpk e rya thn ni sy x kn dpt msg ucpn slmt ari rya dr abg msa pg rya nnt la kn,mcm thn2 lps,n gmbr abg b'bju rya.xpla,nk bt cmne kn.pa pn sy ttp epy sbb thn ni sy blk kmpg,dpt rya ngn nnk n fmly sy.k la abg,nnt sy msg lg e.wlpn abg akn bca msg sy lps abg blk sni,xpala.sekrg2 dpt sy lpskn rndu sy..~

I sms him on 6sep

~Abg,bt pe?sy dh strt cti ari ni.abg,sy juz nk tau sma ada abg mmg btl2 dh bt kptsn ke utk hbgn kta?sy tau slma ni sy yg slalu mulakn gdh,sy yg slalu ckp mcm mntk pts n abg msh p'thnkn,abg msh ble acept kerenah sy tp np tetba abg bg kptsn mcm 2??mmg sy skt ati ngn apa yg abg bt,mmg sy akn sedey mngs setiap kali kta b'gdh tp mcm 2 sj cra sy utk dptkn p'hatian abg.abg,setiap pkra sy bt sume utk abg,utk hbgn kta.kta gdh mcm ne pn,sy skt ati smpi bla pn sy x ksh aslkn sy dpt p'htian abg.ya,sy pnh slhkn abg psl pa yg t'jd tp sy tau pkra ni b'laku b'pnca dr sy jgk.sy yg plh jln ni so sy knala tima blsn e.sy tau sy akn skt ati,keseowgn,merana psl ni tp sy yg plh jln ni.kalo iktkn ati sy,sy nk je cll abg sb sy rndu sgt kt suara abg.sy sntsa rndukn abg..~

I sms him on 4sep

~abg,bt pa 2??mst abg ngh b'brk ngn fmly abg kn,x pn ngh men ngn ank buah abg.abg,sy x tau np tetba je sy rc rya sy thn ni plg sedey wlpn sy akn brya di kg,pdhl saat2 ni laa yg plg sy nnt2 kn sesgt.sbnr e dr ari kta gdh ari 2 sy rc sedey sgt,ati sy x tntrm,sunyi n x epy mcm dlu.apa yg kta bncg ari 2 msh t'ngiang2 di kpla otak sy shgga ari ni.sy juz hrp yg sy dpt bljr utk trskn hdp sy tnpa mcm ne abg ble hdp tnpa b'jmpa,m'dgr suara sy.sy nnt2 kn yg abg akn kiss sy spt mna abg slalu bt td tp hmpa.abg kua kte mcm 2 sj.sy msg,abg bt x tau.abg x cri sy,x kjr sy.abg seolh2 mcm dh buang sy trs dr hdp abg,n abg seolh2 dh x thn lyn krnh sy lg.sy dh nmpk p'ubhn abg skunk.sy sedey sbb owg yg sy syg,cnta akhr e melpskn sy tnpa m'ucpkn dia syg pd sy utk kali t'akhr.sy tau abg x kn cri sy sekra sy x cll or msg abg dlu.sy tkt kehlgn abg tp sy sdh pn kehlgn abg..~

Raya...rAya....raYa...rayA....

oredy working for almost 3yrs,dis is my 1st tym to take al for celbte rya wit my famlies...i juz cant wait to blik kmpg which is at MUAR..i damn miss my hometown ok,seyesly...evndow its not really like kmpg style but its fine wit me...been used to it oredy...da most memorable about my hometown is,my grandma's old house..hueheee *_*

MUAR....

here i come.....

Hate..... but Love

i wana share wit u something,voxxy..bout me n him...tym to tym my r/ship wit me become more complicated..can say we oways had fight,one day compulsary ok...!!i dunno y but b4 dis we r ok,fine n yes we did hv fight but can say we hd a great tym more den fighting...


sometym i tot im da only one who oways strts da fight cz can say evrytym if hes not fulfill wut do i want,i will gv sms to him saying dat n dis which quite annoyed him..i noe if im at his place,ill feel da same too..but wut should i do??its me,vox..n beside i oso need his attention.yes,i undestand dat hes married so his attention is more to his wife but am i wrong if i need his attention evndow little??!!


da story begin....


we made a plan to go out on my last rest day which i on 2nd sept.he cll me da day b4 to meet him at usual place at 11am.i arrved around 10.30am so i juz waited for him since der hv half an hour.when its almost reach 11am i nvr get any clls or all my sms(s) didnt delivered yet.i wait for anther half an hour,suddenly when i cll his "wife" no n guess wut?hes at his work place,i really pissed off..cant he sms n infrm dat he will be late n hv some work to be done.i he does dat,its ok wit me evn dow ill "bengang"..11.40am im off n when to bank to stlle my pymnt,8least if he tell me earlier he'll coming late i can stle my work first..


den he clled n he didnt say dat he's sorry cz make me wait for so dat long.dats really make me more angry.i followed him to sent his car to his frens house n we went to alamanda to watch movie.on our way til we arrved he nvr say a word or mention dat he's sorry or wutver,8least try to persuade me,make me calm down..y b4 dis he can do dat but y on dat day he juz kept quite??when we arrved alamanda he juz let me walk by myself behind him,he didnt hold my hand llike he oways did b4..same as when we were at mines..im so damn sad,really really sad…


after we watched movie,we went back den suddenly we had a big argument inside da car.i screamed,shouted at him.i nvr do dat b4 to him.he juz look at me,doing nothng..after a while he hug me,i dunno wut to do den..after we arrived at nilai,we had a talk..he gv me his decision which im really shocked..he want us to be fren..i juz keep quiet n cried (of cz)..i dunno wut to say or wut to do..


I juz cant imagine dat our r/ship will be like dis..til now everything dat me n him discuss on dat day is stl plying on my head…

Truth or Dare (part 2)

Nov 09,been 2 yrs im wit him.2 tell da truth,my parents dislike him dat much cz of his behaviour which i dont noe which one.its not dat i want to disobey dem but dis is my life,im grown up n noe wut is best for my life.btw,he's not dat will be my husband nway evn dow i wish so but its not gonna happen.



Dis r/ship contnu but im diff.if der is somethng he did which make me annoyed or hate,i'll juz tell him straight4wrd.i dont gv a damn bout his feeling or wut anymore.sometym i evn cll his main no,juz want 2 make thng worst.huehue...


A week b4 aidilfitri,we went out to alamanda 2 shop n dis place became my witness to dis c2ation,which he will getting married on 12dec09.he spilt it out accidently act.i looked at him n wish he told me dat he's kidding but unfortunately,no.he is getting married in bout 2months later.


I felt like i've been cheated twice.i juz dont believe it he repeated it again.for all dis yr,ive been loyalty enough 2 him,nvr go out wit boys evn my close boyfrens who act he already noes.i gv evrythng he wanted n dis is how he repay me??i nvr tot dat i am so dam stupid till now..

Truth oR Dare??

A yr afta,he suddenly gv me really dam big news.all dis happen when we had a big fight which he juz cnx our plan juz bcz his "gf" asked him 2 do smthng.im so damn pissed off.late at nite,he came over 2 my rent hz 2 setle evrythng but i ignored.



Den i asked him a ques which its been in my head quite a long tym.at 1st he ignored but i forced him 2 ans it.n dats da tym when da real truth came out,which dat he's engaged when we strted dating.im shocked,stunned n felt like i want 2 kill him,but i cant.im confused.should i or should not breaking up wit him??dis was the ques which in my mind..

L.O.V.E

i met dis guy,named mohd azry but i called him ery.act,hes not my price charming , but der's something bout him dat make me comfortable whenever or wherever im wit him.ktowg knl from myspace ( b4 fb become famous),but we're juz fren..nvr tot dat will hv seyes r/ship wit him cz dat tym he's wit someone & so am i.


he nvr purposed me to be GF at all,but frm day to day i felt something bout our r/ship which it oredy been seyes...he also nvr say dat he LOVEs me at all,k..so wut am i suppose to do??from the way he treated me,i noe dat der's something bet us but i nvr asked him bout it.he did tell me dat he nvr think to be fren wit any other women since he been fren wit me..i dont noe wether its true or not but so far im wit him,wut did he told me its true.

of cz we had fight,misunderstanding like any other couples but we managed to setle it.i like to 'merajuk' n hes not da one who noes how to 'pujuk' dats y sometimes we had fights..but he learned the way to persuade me,understand me so dat when he had fight,it will be easier for him...

y???y i love him???reasons:
1.he's showering me LOVE
2.he teaches me to LIVE
3.he shows me how important LIFE is
4.he take care of me

so now,we've been together almost 3 years now but he will never be mine & he will left me alone forever......

newbie

hey fellas...

act im not dat new in dis blogger thing..been used it once b4 but long tym ago..but now im back,so ill update my story n share wit all of u..feel free to drop any cmmnt at my post...i oso nees ur suggestion n opinion...till den,tada.....

xoxo